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And now, some more Finding Nino.

ETA: BEFORE YOU READ THE FIC.

Some of you know that I play a part in beinghuman_rp. Short story: It's a game set in modern day NYC, only the mythical beings of stories aren't so mythical. They live and work and play right along with everybody else.

I play misono_soup and the reason I am actually talking about it instead of pretending I don't play a total loon is because I was talking to sunny_yesung and we've decided that Misono and Yesung could use an adult. A Siwon adult. As in: I am kind of clawing the walls because SIWON. With MISONO AND YESUNG. And they're nuts and Siwon is a gentleman and wouldn't that be awesome? Don't you want to be our Siwon? No? Nobody wants to be Siwon and complete our happy, functionally dysfunctional family? You wouldn't have to visit the porn shop where Misono works! You wouldn't have to eat the weird ass food at Yesung's job!

Please think about it? We could really use more Koreans even if you DON'T want to be the adult in our happy household.

And now for what you're REALLY here for: Fic.

Links to past parts! NOW IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER: First and second. Even though this was written after some other stuff, this is three. Reposted to my own journal and backdated, there is part four. Then--after a jump of several months time-- part five. After, we come to part six, part seven, eight, and part nine. I hate you, deadfic.

This takes place directly before part six.



He's waiting to ambush Nino outside the pet shop when Nino's sister ambushes him. "Satoshi-kun," she says softly, right in his ear from directly behind him.

Ohno's spent ten years dealing with Aiba flinging himself on his back and being loud in his ears so Kazue's approach actually startles him deeply. He nearly elbows her in the face as he leaps. "Ah! Kazue-san," he manages once he's no longer flailing, his heart still rabbiting in his chest. A quick glance at the shop window shows him that Nino is watching him, laughing openly. So much for surprising Nino and getting to drive him home; Nino is devious enough to go out the backdoor or the window and take the long way home. "Aw, crap," Ohno sighs.

Kazue smiles at him. "Come walking with me, Satoshi-kun," she says. She's smiling and so sweetly that Ohno knows she's up to something. Whenever Nino has that smile, that's what it means. "Mom's invited you round for dinner anyhow, so he can't avoid you if he wants to come home and have free food tonight."

This makes Ohno smile. "Okay. I really want to see him again. He's been avoiding me."

"Mmm," Kazue hums in agreement and starts walking. Ohno falls into step with her automatically. For a while, as they pass through the village, Ohno thinks it is going be a silent—and perhaps mildly uncomfortable—walk. But once they hit the outskirts of the village, Kazue sighs. "My mother will never say anything against Kazunari's choices," she says.

"Uh." Ohno stuffs his hands in his pockets. "She's a good mom. I really like her."

Wrong thing to say, he thinks, as Kazue gives him an annoyed, sidelong glance. "She won't because she made her own bad choices so who is she to make a judgment, right? That's the way she feels."

Ohno has a bad feeling about this in the pit of his stomach but he doesn't say anything about it. "It takes courage to let go?" he offers.

This time Kazue's look is not sidelong, it's full on and definitely annoyed. "She won't say anything but I will," she tells him, stopping at the bend in the road that will take them to the Ninomiya house. "My brother is an idiot when he has feelings for somebody. If they hurt him, he'll blame himself. If they're hurting, he'll blame himself. When they leave him, it's his fault. Because of this, he'll give his all when he's in a relationship, do you understand?"

Nino is fearless in love is what Ohno understands. Nino is fearless of being himself; whatever anybody else might think, Nino will do as Nino will do. Ohno envies him and is at times almost a little afraid of him. "Yes," he says.

Kazue puffs up her cheeks and blows out a breath. And though she and Nino don't look much alike, he can suddenly see it in her. That same impish charm, that charming irritation, the ill-disguised impatience. "Then I'm going to be very frank with you, Satoshi-kun. If there comes a time when you think you can say forever to him, you had better do it openly or else I'll destroy you."

"What?" Ohno is not sure what she's talking about anymore.

Pressing her hands to her cheeks and looking at him in despair, Kazue looks even more like her brother than before. "Look, there are plenty of people who will have Kazunari but they all do it in secret. Kazunari agrees because…well, who knows why? People will judge any guy who spends a lot of time with him. Because he's openly a gay. So he lets people lie to spare them."

Despite only having had one tiny, surprise kiss with Nino, Ohno is still a little jealous when he hears about Nino's past lovers. And a little turned on, truthfully, but more jealous than anything. "Yes?" he tries without much hope. He's not sure what, if anything, Kazue wants from him right now. Kazue pull her hands down, dragging on her face and she looks so much like her brother. "You're cute," Ohno says without thinking. "You look just like Nino."

She punches him hard on the arm. "Pay attention, you spacey brat!" she barks. But she's smiling at him, just a little. It's not truly happy but it's truly there. She folds her arms and they're tight to her stomach, almost as though she's feeling a little sick. "My brother was born illegitimately, the product of a forbidden relationship," she tells him bluntly.

It's a little shocking. Ohno has known that Nino and Kazue are only half-siblings—their last names make that obvious—but he hadn't known this. "Oh."

Kazue is still smiling. "He was such an ugly little baby," she says softly. "My ugly little brother." She sighs. "All his life he's been somebody's dirty laundry. It hurts him but he accepts it for love. He's always thinking about ways to protect the ones he loves from being hurt. He really likes you a lot, Satoshi-kun. Out of everybody who isn't his family, you could hurt him the most."

"I'm not going anywhere," Ohno says the first thing that comes to mind. He can't imagine his life without Nino in it. Not on Niijima, not anywhere.

"He's used to being left, that's nothing to him anymore," Kauze waves her hands dismissively. "But if you take him, do it openly. If you keep him as your shameful secret, it'll hurt him until it's a poisonous wound." She puts her hand on his wrist and squeezes, tight and painful until Ohno stares at her with wide, wide eyes. "I won't let anybody hurt him. If I can, I won't let anybody hurt Kazunari, you understand?"

Ohno nods dumbly. "But I—"

"I know you can't come out openly to all of Japan about this," Kauze makes a sound of impatience. "There is a lot to consider with your career as an idol star. But in this place? With friends in that one? Do it openly or not at all."

Nodding again, Ohno manages to say, "I—"

"You've been doing good so far, Satoshi-kun!" Kauze says almost chirpily as she lets go of him. "Properly being his friend despite knowing he was a gay, keeping after him when he tries to walk off. Those are admirable qualities, especially when I think he's just begging for a kick in the ass. So keep it up!"

For a moment Ohno just stands there as Nino's sister walks away from him, up the slope of the drive to the house. He scrambles after her. "About this—" he says.

"It's chilly out here," Kazue interrupts. "Mom's making curry rice and you know she's not going to bother reheating it if we're late, so hurry up!"

He catches up to her at the door. "About this—I've got your seal of approval, right?" Why would she warn him if he didn't? Or tell him to keep it up? "If I can do this right, you approve?"

Kazue snorts and goes inside.

Ohno stands outside the door for a moment longer. Not only does he have approval, he realizes, but he's got a chance. A real one. Grinning, he goes inside. Nino's going to be home soon and he wants to be firmly ensconced when he shows up. Because he's not going anywhere and he's not changing his course and it's time Nino knows it if he doesn't already. "Sorry for intruding!" he calls and he's never meant it less in his whole life.

Comments

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flange5
Feb. 18th, 2011 12:04 am (UTC)
&hearts

My heart. For you. At least in virtual form&hearts
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 01:24 am (UTC)
My heart for you and your icon! ♥ ♥ I'm glad you like this part~~~! Makes me happy~!
aegistheia
Feb. 18th, 2011 12:57 am (UTC)
(You might have missed part nine in your Links of Past Parts in Chronological Order. :D)

HAHAHA oh Kazue, whispering into Ohno's ear! Being impatient and sharp with him! She is definitely related to Nino.

It hurts him but he accepts it for love. He's always thinking about ways to protect the ones he loves from being hurt.

Oh, that hurts, and that rings pretty damn true. Also, go Kazue for standing up for her brother!

If you keep him as your shameful secret, it'll hurt him until it's a poisonous wound.

YAY BACKSTORY. I've always liked that Finding Nino!Ohno had categorically refused to keep Nino as somebody hidden (within reason), but I like that we get an explanation for that choice. I'd wondered if it was just an unusual character trait that Ohno had (given that he's an idol star and all), but now that we find out that Nino's an illegitimate child (whose father lives across the island, huh) the reason just clicks into place and makes the reasons behind parts of the entire story so obvious.

Thank you for writing and sharing this! ♥
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 01:37 am (UTC)
THERE IS NO PART NINE! NO! Okay, so there is. Thank you.

I like to imagine Nino's sister as an older version of him, with more sass because she's not an idol. And I really like the idea of her loving him and being protective of him in a kind of behind-his-back way--in part because I think that's how Nino might actually be about things. Giving the people he loves crap but secretly writing songs about them. :D

if it was just an unusual chacracter trait

It's a bit of both. This takes place only about two months before the bits in Tokyo and at this point (must go and fill in backstory!) they've known each other for at least half a year, probably closer to a year in full. Ohno is very 'my pace' about his life and I think--because Nino is a dude and not a girl and Japan wouldn't get upset about a DUDE friend--he figures he doesn't care who knows about his new friend. Indeed, until it gets out to the mainland that Nino is GAY and spending a lot of time with Ohno, nobody cares very much.

Kazue telling him the reason behind some of Nino's more puzzling behavior makes him...well, his determination to be with Nino despite Nino's objections is now iron clad. All of Nino's 'the world will chew us up and spit us out' attitude is now understandable but he also DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THE WORLD. He cares about his friends and keeping their careers safe but other than that, he'd kiss Nino in the middle of Shibuya station if that's what it took to change his mind.

Long reply is rambling and long! Thank you for loving on me! ♥
the_suit_case
Feb. 18th, 2011 04:32 am (UTC)
: )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 04:35 am (UTC)
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
the_suit_case
Feb. 18th, 2011 04:38 am (UTC)
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 04:43 am (UTC)
DAMN IT. NOW I NEED KPOP ICONS FOR YOU.
the_suit_case
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:00 am (UTC)
Hahaha, no you don't! : ))
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:09 am (UTC)
I want to have them FOR YOU.

Also because Yesung is so cute. Look at him!
the_suit_case
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:25 am (UTC)
You have more Yesung icons than I do.

He is pretty precious. : )))) <3
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:36 am (UTC)
I've been adding them. And I blame YOU. And by 'blame' I mean 'thank'.
littlealex
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:35 am (UTC)
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ i do love this series
still_ciircee
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:37 am (UTC)
I'm glad that you still love it! It's been so long since I've done anything with it. Thank you~!
littlealex
Feb. 18th, 2011 05:39 am (UTC)
don't worry about that! I forget how long it's been since the last one anyway ;)
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